Baby in the Blue

it has been quite tiring weeks.

it all started when we went for vaccination for Hub,me and Ayra.

insyaAllah, we are going for Umrah in the sacred place, Mekkah.

so, as a requirement for visa application, we must be 

vaccinated for meninggococcal. 

however, i could not find any literature saying chilldren below two should be 

vaccinated for meniggo. 

Mencivax-the vaccine being used in the DEMC, is not recommended for children below 2.

even the pediatricians in demc told me that it is not necessary.

so, in the end, only and Hub had the Mencevax,

whilst Ayra had an Influenza vaccination.

she has never ever had any trouble with vaccinations before.

i mean, throughout her growing up process, with all those wajib vaccination schedule, 

alhamdulillah, she has been strong all along.

no fever, no body aches.

plus, alhamdulillah, i have been blessed with a healthy child all along.

she has never had any runny nose, chesty cough, no flu.

she is strong.

i'd like to think of it as the benefit of a fully breastfed baby.

alhamdulillah, He is the most merciful.

but this time, it went the opposite direction.

influenza, of course is meant to prevent flu.

and what happened was, she had the flu!

yup, that night itself, she developed all the flu symptoms,

with cough, runny nose, body aches, fever.

she could not sleep well, wanting me to hold her tight and clinging on to me.

that's what she does when she's not well.

to hear her chest full of phlegm, and her not being able to cough it out

really troubled me and Hub.

we didnt know what to do.

of course, she was brought to the doc, but seeing her so inactive,

with that sorrowful eyes, and aching tears, vomitting out her foods and meds.

it broke my heart.

she had fever for about 7 days.

i did not sleep well. she liked to sleep on me and keep on nursing.

i would say, almost all the time, throughout the night.

this was not easy for me.

after a long day at work, and sleepless night, with constant feeding time,

i felt like my body was pulling off!

but, this was a test.

i told her so many times, when she was crying, 

as if asking me for help,

"Allah is testing you sayang. He wants you to be stronger.

sometimes, to be stronger, we have to feel the pain. if you can overcome 

all this, insyaallah you will be stronger and healthier."

i really hope she understood.

she wanted a constant hug from me.

she wanted to be with me all the time.

poor girl..

even her Nena was sad to see her so passive.

alhamdulillah, she is recovering.

the fever is gone, only the phlegm.

and very2 sticky one in the nose.

i do hope she gets better by the time for umrah.

 my darling baby looking tired. 

she was all quiet when she's sick.

no bubbly Ayra.

we really2 missed her cheeky happy old self.

that eyes.

it showed pain.

i suspected the side effect of the vaccination.

i read that it may cause fever, body ache, flu.

Alhamdulillah, praise to Allah,

once she is better, she hopped on the speed mode in no time:

(my mom sent me the images cos she was so happy seeing her granddaughter up and about)

 once her fuel is set to the fullest bar, she is ready to work it out!

pulling this and pushing that.

Ayra is on the job, yo.

 she felt the house needed to be rearranged.

according to her style of course.

 she made a tawaf around the gigantic bean bag 3 times.

practicing for the real tawaf for umrah, i suppose.

good girl.

gettin' some preparation done.

building up stamina.

and at home, she was back to helping us cleaning up cupboards.

we know she is okay when she can dance, sing and bubbly talk,

and she started to 'help' around in the house.

i love Ayra so much.

i pray Allah gives her good health always.

mommy loves you baby.