recalculating the work life

I am rethinking on my work life.

like a new air to breathe.

to explore.

not that i hate my current work..

the politics stress me out, and with me being pregnant, the last thing i want is to be stressed out.

i know this work politics can be everywhere, any place u go.

but when you are sucked down into it, and it leaves your performance on the roll,

u just might want to get the hell out of there.

there is something just not worth staying for.

and i need to learn to move on.

i have always wanted to be SAHM.

or WAHM.

to be able to put my husband and children foremost than everything else.

to allow work to revolve around them, to adjust time around them.

My Mom has been a HUGE help, but 3rd one will leave her more tired than ever.

i cannot do that to her.

yet.

i need to think of the financial status.

we are doing okay, but we need to keep it at that par.

so, what can i do?

besides job hunting, what can i do?

like, what i really love to do?

to indulge my inner thoughts on my dream jobs, i would love to do something related to:

a. baking and cooking

b. books and books

c. writing (secretly doing so since small)

d. shopping and fashion (but no talent watsoeva) 

how do u overcome your fear in pursuing your dream?